I'm feeling worn down by this GD stuff. I started tracking my numbers this week and it isn't looking good at all. My fasting numbers have been high every morning. My dinner time numbers fluctuate. I hate having to think so hard about what to eat. I dread eating, but I've been hungry. I hate having to stay up late just to eat. It just stinks all over.
I did have a good meeting with the NP at the new OB office. That was a wonderful answer to prayer. I go in on Monday to meet the OB and have my first physical exam. I'm hopeful it will go well.
I'm pretty sure I'm headed to the GD counselor and likely, insulin. Something's gotta give because I can't get these numbers to look right. I also can't get to feeling right either. I don't want the insulin, but I'm wishing I could find *something* to help me feel better.
Big whine for tonight, I guess. We had a wonderful week filled with great blessings from the Lord. I don't want to be complaining. I guess I'm just focusing too much on myself and my inconveniences instead of the opportunities I have to learn and develop stamina and discipline. Help me to find that right attitude, Lord.
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This is a challenging journey, so your gracious encouragement is quite welcome.